星期四, 十一月 09, 2006

just before i start my revision for the night....

have u ever been in a relationship with someone before? do u get jealous if ur partner does something with another girl, as in...maybe...say sing a few love songs together and didn't sing any with you? well....ya, as usual....what else can the boring me be talking about? here was how it goes....

actually planned to study late into the night when my bf called and said that heis colleges are going ktv n ask me if i want to go caz he wants to go n hopes that we can go together. well, given that my poor hubby works so hard it is difficult to turn him down. caz some of his nicer looking clothes was at my place, i had to deliver to him the clothes for him to wear out. we went to orchard's party world, reached about 1am n was there till about 5am. before reaching there we still had a little hipcup caz of some stupid cigarette pack that i didn't tell him early enought hat it was in the bag n he didn't brong. anyway.....besides the 3 colleges that went the other time too, there was 2 other guys, a one from philipines n another a local, i think. i did sing some songs that night, song songs together with everyonexcpt my bf. he was playing the hand game n some dice game every now and then. he did say n really did sing a song for me and it was my first tiem hearing him sing(you know it's different when u just sing and when you go the ktv to sing), he singa not bad. but i am not good at singing and all. sometimes because of the bloated feeling from the beer, i became monotone. the other times he sang were a few love songs witht the beijing gal.

so thats where the jealousy comes in. never sing w me n it's not as if he got sing w his other guy friends for fun. before we reach party world,he was pretty concerned if his hair was standing properly. first time u n ur bf go ktv but never sing with each other :( he sing with other gal. then u know they are both from beijing.....sigh....i am feeling sad n jealous for the whole day. the only song that i really like from last night and seems to ring in my head is a older chinese duet love song, which he sang with the other gal. ok, she can sing, better than me too...so u see it adds to it even more....

yet again, u know women can be petty about this kind of thing. but anyway its just sing song what....why link until so much? next time go can sing together wad....ya i know. i do hear my brain saying all that but still...sigh.....i must admit that i m thinking too much but i can't help it.....

i am feeling sad.....

星期日, 十一月 05, 2006

well....nothing much happen today....

Just realised that i haven't edited my personal profile for quite some time already...

been feling unhappy the whole day because of my bf again. caz he work until very late last night then very tired....thikning about how much that he has thinned in such a short while (his jeans is loose)and the even more dramatica change through the year....guess if his parents knew that he is doing thi job to try to stay in Singapore to accompany me, they will probably hate me =<

now i really think that being a housewife is not a bad idea. given my personality, i think at the very most i can only be part time house wife. but ya...i think that it would be nice to take good care of my hubby from as many aspects as possible. he's put in so much for me...i really want to do a lot for him but right now it is still pretty much lmited. maybe we will consider ROM next yr around my birthday, that way, he is not obliged to follow through with this boss.

you like the US TV series, Desprerate housewives? i love it. i guess besides all the juicy gossips that are entwined into the characters of the show, i huess, the people who watch it find some kind of similarities between the characters and themselves despite the nationality or ethnicity(hopefully i spell it right) etc etc....like i sometimes wish to be like Bree, a perfectionist which is one of my personality traits. but in the struggle to be perfect, it is realy tiring and hard to try to be the best when there is no best to speak of. kinda ironic but this is really a mental struggle sometimes that i think i am going mad at times. then i wish that i was like Gabrielle, hot but think its kinda hard....but just fantasizing. i liekt he why Lynette is, both mum n wife but as u can see there are hipcups but it is possi;be to make things work.....

k now...tok another...gtg bath eat, study study n more studying!!!
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